Memories from Slovakian retreat

It is now over a year since the retreat in Slovakia took place. It was my first big spiritual retreat which had about 50 participants from different places around the world, such as Canada, Australia, Greece, UK etc. We were accommodated in chalets in the middle of the Carpathian mountain. Close to us flowed a big stream which added a lot to the atmosphere of the place. As we arrived a teacher gave us a room schedule, and after we were accommodated the retreat has officially started. We set our main subject of practical investigation for the duration of the retreat. That subject was astral travel and the goal was to investigate astral projection and to increase chances of having it through methods such as waking up in astral from dreams and projecting directly to the astral.

The next day we went for an awareness walk in the morning in an amazing natural area. We soon arrived at a big meadow surrounded by mountains full of trees, with a stream flowing close to us. After sitting in a circle we commenced with a meditative practice followed by a discussion about some practical aspects of the esoteric teachings. The walk continued and we set a goal to do at least fifty reality checks. (Reality checks are checks where one questions the reality in which one is in, with the purpose of waking up in a dream.)

I have found this particular walk to be very strong. I was uplifted by the group strength and group effort to be aware of the present moment, which made it easier for me to be aware. I felt peaceful and in tune with the nature around me. After that we had practical discussions and practices such as mantras, concentration and astral projection.

On a third day a teacher who organized the retreat surprised us when he arrived to the retreat with Edith Pritchard. She is the wife of Mark Pritchard (Belzebuub) and has many years of experience of teaching and practicing esoteric teachings. Edith started by giving us an inspirational talk about astral projection and how to achieve it. At that time we were in the main hall of our accommodation centre where we gathered throughout the retreat for talks and some practices.

The next morning at breakfast Edith told us some insightful things about awareness and its relation to spiritual work and astral projection. After that we met in our meeting hall that I previously mentioned. This was a very interesting moment. All fifty of us were there, sitting in silence and doing our best to be aware. Soon Edith came and commented how the energy of the room is now much better. I found this interesting because there really is a lot to our internal state and its influence on environment.

That day we dedicated our entire focus to increasing chances of astral projection, whether through regular practices, reality checks, awareness etc. At the evening we gathered around a bon fire. Teachers that came all the way from Australia guided practices and gave us some insights about astral projection. At one point during that evening we vocalized a mantra which helped me enormously to overcome some negative internal state that I was experiencing. Mantras can be really powerful and can clear our internal emotional and mental mess so that we can see things clearly and objectively.

The fifth and the last day was the most powerful day for me. It was a sunny and pleasantly warm day. We started by having an awareness walk in nature, guided by Edith. Before lunch Edith guided a practice which entailed visualizing ourselves flying out of the planet Earth, into space, flying out of our solar system, through our galaxy and out of it, and then trying to fly beyond all galaxies, with intention to see what is there. We did that while laying down in a meadow. Even though I didn’t have any substantial results from it, I felt something very nice by doing this practice.

Throughout that day we did various practices and had discussions and talks. Edith explained to us some important thing about spiritual path, and those who had questions about it asked her. After dinner she guided a practice which entailed laying in a meadow and looking at the stars. She told us that when we feel down or overwhelmed by our inner negativity, we can look at the stars on a clear night, which can give us strength to move on along the path.

After that we went back to our hall where she gave the last official talk for the retreat. The talk was about the spiritual journey and our spiritual potential, and some other things related to it. After that we all gathered around the bon fire, and just contemplated the fire and reflected on this retreat experience. I cannot put into words how positive was the effect that this evening had on me. Positive is not an adequate word, but I don’t know any word which would describe how I felt then. I noticed that everyone was spiritually affected. There was silence around the fire. It seemed like words were unnecessary at that moment, the moment which I believe was for all of us so alive and filled with deep mystery.

On the next morning we went back to Vienna and Bratislava, from which people caught their airplanes, trains and buses back home. The retreat was over, but the feeling of it stays. Hopefully we can all use what we have gained from that retreat so that we can get closer to that which is real. I’m very grateful to everyone who participated in this retreat, without whom this retreat wouldn’t be what it was, and also to Edith for her precious talks and guidance.

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Self-observation for knoweldge of the self

This exercise is a continuation of the awareness of the present moment exercise which you can find here. Once you are aware of your external world, you gently and in a relaxed way bring your attention to your internal world. You observe emotions, thoughts and any other sensations that manifest within you. If you do that consistently, you will not only notice that those thoughts, emotions, sensations etc. are separate energies from who you really are, but you will also see how they are affecting and controlling your life.

Those inner states are in esoteric terminology known as “egos” (and more and more contemporary psychologists are using this term too). Egos are the inferior part of us – energies such as anger, pride, fear, lust, greed, gluttony, jealousy etc. They manifest in what is known as the five inferior centers of the body – intellectual, emotional, motor, instinctual and sexual center. These energies are part of the subconscious, and the spiritual work deals with transforming the subconscious into consciousness.

In the intellectual center they manifest as subconscious thoughts, which are thoughts not consciously conjured. The majority of the time it is these kinds of thoughts that go through our mind.

In the emotional center they manifest as emotions, and it is easy to notice them there. Emotions which we can feel can vary greatly. There is an enormous range of them, much more then those most commonly known. Usually it’s easy to notice big outbursts of emotions, but there are also subtle ones which can eventually snowball into outbursts or just keep us in low states without us realizing why we feel so low. Emotional center is covering big part of torso.

The motor center is located on the upper part of the back. Egos manifesting in the motor center can take control over our entire body. For example, a person is walking down the street and they hear some unusual sound in the distance. The person might suddenly turn around to see what is happening. This action will happen without the person really consciously deciding to do it. Another example is tapping your foot when waiting.

The instinctual center is a very basic one and is located in the lower part of your back. Usually this center keeps us out of danger, but egos that use it can cause a lot of trouble. The instinctual center can react with fear when there is no danger around, like for example when walking through a dark forest and imagining scary scenarios. Crippling fear then enters into the instinctive center and causes paralyzing sensations. Another manifestation is when you burn your finger on a stove and suddenly pull the finger back. Even though this instinct is a useful thing to have, it is much better when egos in the instinctual center are replaced by consciousness.

The last center is the sexual center and the ego that manifest there is lust. Sensations of lust can be easily observed and noticed, especially when an attractive person of opposite sex is seen. However, lust in the sexual center can also be triggered by fantasizing.

To be aware of what is going on within you and outside of you is really the complete practice of awareness. If you will only practice awareness of the external world, then your inner states will eventually pull you back into a daydream. The consciousness that we are is still very small and undeveloped, and it is like a piece of driftwood in a stormy sea – it is just a matter of time until it will be overridden by the waves of egos. To not allow that to happen you have to guard it by being aware of your egos and in this way you prevent from taking control. Buddha said how consciousness is like a candle flame amidst fiery winds – we need to surround that flame with our hands (self-observation) so that it doesn’t extinguish.

Similarly, like the previous exercise of awareness of the present moment, this one is also simple and after a period of time it becomes a natural way of living. It is the second foundational step towards the First Key for Awakening – elimination of the egos and their transformation into consciousness.

Life changing benefits of Belzebuub’s teachings (part 1 – Background)

My interest in spirituality started when I was talking to someone about one of my childhood experience. The person told me that he knows of some other people that experienced the same thing. Even though what I experienced that time wasn’t related to out of body experience, the person told me that I could find out about what I saw by travelling out of body, the process commonly known as astral projection. I will never forget my reaction when I heard that something like this is possible. I was shocked, but in a very joyful way. It was like someone gave me the key for something that I longed for for a long time, but without really knowing thus far that I had the longing for that key.

I asked him many things about the astral, I wanted to know as much as possible. He told me that it is a dimension where one can get answers that are unavailable in this physical world. Soon afterwards he gave me a thin book about the subject, containing mostly brief history of astral projection and some techniques on how to achieve it. I was very excited about it, and decided to give it a go. However, in the same time I started to get pulled more and more into pleasures of mundane life. I was around 16 at the time and was keen to do popular things like going to parties and bars. My interest in mundane activities started to intensify from that point onwards so I put astral projection to a side.

When I was 17 I heard about Carlos Castaneda and his books. He was anthropologist that went to Mexico to study about an effects of some psychotropic plants. However, his initial study intention was replaced when he met a shaman that started teaching him about deeper and multidimensional side of life. I enjoyed his books even though I didn’t really understand them very much, but nevertheless they were making me aware of spiritual side of life, amidst the sea of mundane pleasures in which I was entrapped at the time.

When I was 18 I discovered a new book called Adventures Beyond the Body by William Buhlman. I was very happy when I borrowed it in a local library. I remember it was Friday, and usually I was very addicted to going out on Weekends, but as I started reading this book I didn’t cared much about going out that night. I ended up reading entire book in one go. The book was a compilation of the experiences of the writer and through it I became aware of many new potentials of travelling out of body. However, I was still very much addicted to socialization, social gatherings and parties, and many things that goes with it. I graduated high school at that age, and soon afterwards I moved to a new city to continue my studies, which in my eyes meant new opportunities for social gatherings, beyond restrictions of my parents.

About one year after that, a friend visited me where I lived during my studies, and conversation moved in a spiritual direction. We talked about spiritual things and astral projection. We decided that together we will investigate about astral projection and how to astral project. It was after that talk that my yearning for unknown got ignited again. I started gathering information about OBE’s (out of body experiences). Among many things I came across at that time, I found Robert Bruce works to be practical so I started applying some of his techniques. I remember one of such event, it was summer afternoon. I decided I will do “the rope technique”. This technique consist of imaging climbing an imaginary rope with imaginary hands. Some 15 minutes after I started having vibrational sensations in my body. Fear took over so I stopped the practice. I was aware of those sensations and that they are a natural part of the process of astral projection, but I was surprised that this started to happen so fast.

Around that time I found a website called Mysticweb. The website offered free courses on astral projection to which I gladly enrolled. It also had a nice chatroom which I often visited. I enjoyed the course and the chat very much, and people there were nice. The course  was very practical and simple, explaing in a step by step way how to astral project and use time out of body wisely. I found out that this website is also offering two other courses which deal with self-discovery and spiritual journey. The author of all the courses was spiritual teacher called Belzebuub.

I enrolled to self-discovery course but I didn’t really practiced the techniques.  I had an obstacle that was preventing me from starting a journey of self-discovery. I was also still addicted to social gatherings. About a year after that I managed to overcome the obstacle that was preventing me from delving into self-discovery. Immediately I stopped with all serious addictions that I had and I enrolled to the third course that Mysticweb (which then changed name to Gnosticweb) was offering. It was the course called Esoteric Wisdom and it was a practical course on starting ones own spiritual journey. From that point onward started a new chapter in my life.