Exercise of Retrospection – A Powerful Tool That Can Change Your Life

An exercise of retrospection is a powerful tool. With it we gain self-knowledge, insights, and understanding about our behavior and subconscious defects or egos (things such as anger, fear, pride, lust etc.) that have manifested during the day but have gone unnoticed, and as they go unseen they are controlling our lives. As it is said, ‘Life is a series of events’. The flow of the day sets out various events that we go through, most of which bring about egos within us, regardless if we notice them or not. Sometimes we go through difficult or intense situations, a chaotic development of events where it is very hard to be in the present moment and detached from our egos. These types of events can easily pull us in and drag us along, which means that we act unconsciously. Even if the flow of events is ordinary, there are still emotions, thoughts, and/or impulses that manifest within us.

From an outburst of anger, to a subtle surging of envy, in the retrospective exercise we can see all of that and get knowledge about the egotistic state (ego) and how it controls us. This then can change our lives, simply because, in the exercise of retrospection, we are looking at the events from the perspective of the observer, rather than the participant. Continue reading

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Heroes, by Rumi

HEROES

Does any artist paint for the sake of the picture itself, without the hope of offering some good?

No, but for the sake of  the viewers and the young who will be drawn by it and freed from cares.

Or does any potter hastily throw a pot or a bowl without any thought of what it will hold?

Does any calligrapher write for the script alone without any regard for the reader?

The external form is for the sake of something unseen, and that took shape for something else unseen.

Just as the moves in a game of chess reveal the results of each move in what follows.

They make one move to conceal another move, and that for something else, and so on and on.

So move on, aware of reasons within reasons, one move after another, to checkmate.

One step is for the sake of another, like the rungs of a ladder, to reach the roof.

The hunger for food produces semen; semen is for procreation, and the light in the parent’s eyes.

Someone with dulled vision sees no further than this: his intelligence has no movement; it vegetates.

Whether a plant is summoned or not, it stays planted within the soil.

Don’t be deceived if the wind bends it.

It’s head says, “We obey the zephyr’s request,” while its feet say, “Leave us alone!”

Since he does not know how to move, he advances on trust like the blind.

Consider what acting on trust means in a war: it’s like a gambler trusting the throw of the dice.

But if someone’s insight is unfrozen, it penetrates the veil.

He sees with his own eyes in the present what will come to pass in ten year’s time.

In the same way, everyone perceives the invisible future, whether good or bad, according to the measure of his insight.

When barriers in front and behind are removed, the eye penetrates and reads the Tablet of the Unseen.

When he looks back to the origin of existence, the beginning and all the past display themselves, including the argument between the angels of earth and Divine Majesty, their resistance to recognizing our Father Adam as God’s steward.

And when he casts his eye forward, he sees all that will come to pass until the Gathering.

Therefore he sees back to the root of the root, and forward to the Day of Decision.

Anyone, to the degree of his enlightenment, sees as much as he has polished of himself.

The more he polishes, the more he sees, the more visible do the forms become.

If you say purity is by the grace of God, this success in polishing is also through that Generosity.

That work and prayer is in proportion to the yearning: People have nothing but what they have striven for.

God alone is the giver of aspiration: no rough brute aspires to kingliness, nor does God’s gift of good fortune preclude one’s own consent and will and choice.

But when He brings trouble upon some ill-fated person, he ungratefully packs off in flight.

Whereas when God brings trouble upon a blessed man, he just draws nearer to God.

In battle the cowardly, from fear of their lives, have chosen their means of escape.

But heroes are borne forward by their fear and pain.

From fear, too, the weak soul dies within itself.

Tribulation and fear for one’s life are touchstones to distinguish the cowardly from the brave.

– Rumi

(translated by Kabir Helminski)

The Water We Seek

Not long ago I found one of poem by Rumi which I found to be inspiring and insightful.  It’s called The Water We Seek

The eye or the spirit that focuses on the transient
falls on its face wherever it goes.
Someone who focuses on the distance,
without knowledge, may see far,
but just as we do in a dream.

Asleep on the bank of a river, lips parched,
you dream you are running toward water.
In the distance you see the water of your desire
and, caught by your seeing, you run toward it.

In the dream you boast,
“I am the one whose heart can see through the veils.”
Yet every step carries you further away
toward the perilous mirage.

From the moment you dreamed you set out
you created the distance
from that which had been near to you.
Many set out on a journey
that leads them farther away from their goal.

The intuitive claims of the sleeper are a fantasy.
You, too, are sleepy; But for God’s sake,
if you must sleep, sleep on the Way of God,
and maybe some other seeker on the Way
will awaken you from your fantasies and slumber.

No matter how subtle the sleeper’s thought becomes,
his dreams will not guide him Home.
Whether the sleeper’s thought is twofold or threefold,
it is error multiplying error.

While he dreams of running through the wilderness,

the waves are lapping so near.

While he dreams of the pangs of thirst,

the water is nearer than his jugular vein.

Life changing benefits of Belzebuub’s teachings (part 2 – Experience)

When I made the decision that I will practice spirituality seriously, I started exploring more the Self-discovery course. I started practice exercises that were taught there, such as awareness, self-observation, detachment from thoughts and emotions, exploring what consciousness is and general study of my subconscious. The main objective of this course was to gain knowledge of oneself, of inner drives, thoughts and emotions, all of which influence our actions and hence our lives. I also learned that those negative subconscious elements (in Gnosis referred to as egos) manifest in five centres of the body. Around that time I started with Esoteric Wisdom course. In this course we learned about main 3 keys of awakening, spiritual path, karma and dharma, dimensions of life, what happens when we die and more. The main 3 keys for awakening are

–  elimination of subconscious elements (egos) – those are things such as anger, greed, fear, jealousy, pride, gluttony, lust etc.

–  alchemy (also known as white tantra), a sexual practice between husband and wife with purpose of using sexual energies to build higher energy bodies

–  helping others spiritually

I started applying the first key (elimination of egos) as soon as I learned it. This is a technique that utilizes higher force to eliminate inferior elements of ourselves. Within every of those elements is trapped a piece of our consciousness, and once we apply the elimination technique to that inferior defect (such as for example anger), tiny percentage of our true self (the consciousness) returns back to the main consciousness that we have available and in this way we wake up from our psychological sleep. Then our true self is literally growing in size, we start feeling superior emotions and much more.

During the first several months of my journey I was having very vivid and significant dreams, with lots of conscious astral experiences, all of which were telling me that I am on the right way and that I should continue. In one of such occasion, on Friday during the dawn, I was taken to a place for which I knew it is a Gnostic church, even though I never heard before that such exist. In it there was a gathering and discussion was about helping humanity. Some two months after this experience I was reading one of Samael Aun Weor’s book called The Three Mountains, and he wrote that there is a specific gathering where higher beings gather on Friday during dawn in Gnostic church with intention to help humanity. Fortunately I had such experiences early on through which I saw that there is indeed something more to Belzebuub’s teachings

As time went by I started applying the first key more fervently. Then after a year of applying it I noticed that I start to perceive things differently; entire environment was bigger, I could perceive more then usual and I was more centered in the present moment. It was unusual at first though I liked this new change. It was a sign that I am on good track and that this technique works. It also gave me first hand experience on how it is to increase consciousness. Over years this change in perception started to intensify and I started to see more of reality. I learned that the more consciousness I rescue, the more of reality I can see. And this is something really amazing.

Since that point till now I experienced and managed to overcome a lot of things through applying the first and the third key of Gnosis. Through astral I verified that Belzebuub is a higher being which energy is of love. The teachings I was applying and am still applying are universal teachings of spiritual development, also taught by great masters that once walked the Earth, such as Buddha, Krishna, Jesus, Lao Tzu, Rumi and many others. It was Samael Aun Weor that unveiled this universal teachings in last century, but Belzebuub clarified them to the detail and made them more revolutionary.

This teachings are very direct and bring deep change. Through them I managed to overcome addictions that I had and have overcame lots of low states in which I was very often dwelling before I found Gnosis. I learned how to detach from my emotions and thoughts and be centered in what I really am – the consciousness. Through practices of awareness, self-observation and the first key I learned what is consciousness (the real me) and what is subconscious. I found joy and peace in simplicity and by increasing my consciousness and decreasing egos I started having love, compassion and understanding for people, not just for my family and friends but also for strangers.

I saw that when I am clouded by negative state such as anger or fear that this filters how I see the world and distort reality, and that when I am clear of those states that I am objective and see reality as it is. In this way, as I was trying to be clear as much as possible throughout the day, my relationships and communication with various people improved drastically. I learned how to be detached in a situation when someone is angry at me and how to tackle with situations of similar kind.

It’s hard to put in words how precious this teachings are, and to enumarate all the benefits it brough to my life. I would recommend everyone who found this teachings to give them a try.

Life changing benefits of Belzebuub’s teachings (part 1 – Background)

My interest in spirituality started when I was talking to someone about one of my childhood experience. The person told me that he knows of some other people that experienced the same thing. Even though what I experienced that time wasn’t related to out of body experience, the person told me that I could find out about what I saw by travelling out of body, the process commonly known as astral projection. I will never forget my reaction when I heard that something like this is possible. I was shocked, but in a very joyful way. It was like someone gave me the key for something that I longed for for a long time, but without really knowing thus far that I had the longing for that key.

I asked him many things about the astral, I wanted to know as much as possible. He told me that it is a dimension where one can get answers that are unavailable in this physical world. Soon afterwards he gave me a thin book about the subject, containing mostly brief history of astral projection and some techniques on how to achieve it. I was very excited about it, and decided to give it a go. However, in the same time I started to get pulled more and more into pleasures of mundane life. I was around 16 at the time and was keen to do popular things like going to parties and bars. My interest in mundane activities started to intensify from that point onwards so I put astral projection to a side.

When I was 17 I heard about Carlos Castaneda and his books. He was anthropologist that went to Mexico to study about an effects of some psychotropic plants. However, his initial study intention was replaced when he met a shaman that started teaching him about deeper and multidimensional side of life. I enjoyed his books even though I didn’t really understand them very much, but nevertheless they were making me aware of spiritual side of life, amidst the sea of mundane pleasures in which I was entrapped at the time.

When I was 18 I discovered a new book called Adventures Beyond the Body by William Buhlman. I was very happy when I borrowed it in a local library. I remember it was Friday, and usually I was very addicted to going out on Weekends, but as I started reading this book I didn’t cared much about going out that night. I ended up reading entire book in one go. The book was a compilation of the experiences of the writer and through it I became aware of many new potentials of travelling out of body. However, I was still very much addicted to socialization, social gatherings and parties, and many things that goes with it. I graduated high school at that age, and soon afterwards I moved to a new city to continue my studies, which in my eyes meant new opportunities for social gatherings, beyond restrictions of my parents.

About one year after that, a friend visited me where I lived during my studies, and conversation moved in a spiritual direction. We talked about spiritual things and astral projection. We decided that together we will investigate about astral projection and how to astral project. It was after that talk that my yearning for unknown got ignited again. I started gathering information about OBE’s (out of body experiences). Among many things I came across at that time, I found Robert Bruce works to be practical so I started applying some of his techniques. I remember one of such event, it was summer afternoon. I decided I will do “the rope technique”. This technique consist of imaging climbing an imaginary rope with imaginary hands. Some 15 minutes after I started having vibrational sensations in my body. Fear took over so I stopped the practice. I was aware of those sensations and that they are a natural part of the process of astral projection, but I was surprised that this started to happen so fast.

Around that time I found a website called Mysticweb. The website offered free courses on astral projection to which I gladly enrolled. It also had a nice chatroom which I often visited. I enjoyed the course and the chat very much, and people there were nice. The course  was very practical and simple, explaing in a step by step way how to astral project and use time out of body wisely. I found out that this website is also offering two other courses which deal with self-discovery and spiritual journey. The author of all the courses was spiritual teacher called Belzebuub.

I enrolled to self-discovery course but I didn’t really practiced the techniques.  I had an obstacle that was preventing me from starting a journey of self-discovery. I was also still addicted to social gatherings. About a year after that I managed to overcome the obstacle that was preventing me from delving into self-discovery. Immediately I stopped with all serious addictions that I had and I enrolled to the third course that Mysticweb (which then changed name to Gnosticweb) was offering. It was the course called Esoteric Wisdom and it was a practical course on starting ones own spiritual journey. From that point onward started a new chapter in my life.

Gnosis means knowledge

Gnosis means knowledge in Greek. I will say something about my understanding of Gnosis in the way I came to know this concept in the last several years.

“Know thyself and you will know the Universe and the gods.”

This is written on the entrance of the temple of Apollo in Delhi, Greece. This phrase in short says what Gnosis is about. It’s about attaining the knowledge of the Universe through the knowledge of oneself. It is not a type of knowledge that we can get by reading it in a book – that is not knowledge, it is information we read. Rather, knowledge is something we directly experience.

Self-knowledge is a knowledge we get by observing our inner world of thoughts, emotions, drives, impulses and all other subconscious elements that we can perceive. This is done by self-observation, a technique taught in Gnostic teachings. With it we start seeing things that are happening within us, things that are driving our actions and which we are not even aware of. We start seeing dark elements of subconscious, such as anger, jealousy, negativity, fear, greed, pride etc. Usually those aspects are thought of as being a part of human nature, something that we just happen to have and need to learn how to live with it. However, that is not so. These elements are not permanent part of who we are. The core of who we are is the consciousness, a spiritual spark.

When we are aware of the present moment, being free from thoughts and emotions, without any worry or concern, just being here and now and simply existing, then we get a glimpse on who we are. It is that awareness that is us. Belzebuub phrased that very well when he said:

“Thoughts, emotions and feelings are constantly changing – they are impermanent. That which is permanent is the consciousness.”

So the emotions and thoughts are just things stuck to our psyche, and they are things that we can change. We can change the nature of our psyche by transforming those negative aspects of ourselves. Within them are parts of our consciousness, and by eliminating the negative aspects we set those parts of consciousness free and in this way the consciousness grows. That changes everything. The way we perceive world is different, our understanding increases, we see deeper into things, we see more, we get more power to detach from negative states when they manifest, we start seeing that same divine spark in others, we start feeling more compassion and love for others etc.

There is one more powerful technique that is like a circle around all other techniques for transformation, and that technique is alchemy. It is a sexual practice between husband a wife for purpose of transformation of internal energies and more.

In this way then, by applying techniques such as self-observation and elimination of the negative inner states (and later on alchemy), we start getting self-knowledge. We start to know about the enslaving negative forces within us, and we also gradually know the core of who we are. And then, according to esoteric teachings,  we start to know “the Universe and the gods”, because all life in its core is of the same substance. But to truly know who we are is a great quest, and it takes a long time of dedicated effort to attain that great knowledge.

Enlightenment in ancient and modern world

Enlightenment today is a very famous concept.  More and more people in the world are becoming interested in that concept and want to find out what enlightenment entails.  When my interest in spirituality started to grow I didn’t really reflect on that word, or had any real interest to “become enlightened”.  It was just another popular word that was used. After a while I began to take that word more seriously, reflecting on it and trying to find out what it really is, if such thing even exists.

That was when I decided that I will start applying spiritual teachings, after I finished a course that was written by mystic teacher Belzebuub. The course was called “Gnostic Wisdom” and it was about what enlightenment is, what one needs to do to achieve it, as well as about life, death, karma and some other things pertaining to existence.  It was then when I got first concrete information on what enlightenment is. I was glad that the explanation about it was coming from someone who claimed that he actually achieved a concrete stage of enlightenment, rather then reading it in a book by someone who just wrote what he/she heard about it.

In that “Gnostic Wisdom” course, Belzebuub explained that enlightenment is a long process and requires a lot of hard work and complete dedication to that purpose. It is not a moment of realization that makes you enlightened, as it is commonly believed. According to him, one reaches enlightenment by practicing the 3 fundamental keys – elimination of negative inner states, alchemy and helping others spiritually.

By practicing those keys, one starts to walk along the spiritual path that is created and set by higher beings. It is a path of tests, hardships and spiritual rewards. It is an ancient path, known in many different cultures and religions. The Path is divided in three main stages known as mountains, and the first degree of enlightenment is attained when first mountain is finished. However the “ultimate” enlightenment, in the full  meaning of the word is reached when the entire Path is completed.

Belzebuub has been walking along that path for years, and has explained it to others who wish to walk along it. So the things I learned in that “Gnostic Wisdom” course serve as a map. A map set by someone who has gone through it.

Having also read other spiritual texts I realized that information about enlightenment is the same in every sacred texts. Buddha, Krishna, Jesus, Moses, Rumi, Kabir, Gurdjieff etc. etc., all those individuals who are known for being spiritually developed, have explained what enlightenment is in the same way.  All of them have said that enlightenment is about achieving permanent peace, love, bliss and reaching to the Highest, to the Ultimate reality – by inner purification and transformation.

So there is a universal meaning of that very popular concept. It is something very specific and concrete, and those who have reached it have told us and are still telling us that it is a potential that human beings can realize.